Nov 4, 2013

My Love Will Find You

Dear Calvin,

Today was your due date. I wish you were here. I wish I could hug you and kiss you and snuggle you again. You and your siblings are the best things that ever happened to me, that I have been a part of. You make my life richer, more complete.

I hope that you know how much I love you. How much I miss you. How sorry I am for not being able to keep you here with me. I hope that you know I would do it all again in a heartbeat.

Having you and losing you has made me more of myself. (Perhaps that sounds convoluted or crazy, but I think it's true.)

Your life has already taught me so much. It gives me more appreciation for what I have, and better perspective on what's important. Your strength inspires me.

My dear, sweet baby boy, I miss you. I miss you terribly. But I hope that you know, I hope that you feel, wherever you are, my love will find you.

xoxo, Mommy


  1. Sending you hugs and prayers today. These days are awful to manage :'(
    Happy should've-been-birthday, Calvin x

  2. Thinking of you today and sending so much love. xo

  3. On 11/4 you will always celebrate Calvin's life as he grows and lives in the presence of God, yet knowing the love of his will be reunited!


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