May 9, 2017

Sugarless May Day 9

I feel no magic.

I am tired. I am moody. I am so over this.

The end.

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Yes, yes, I know. I was not expecting to feel any magical energy or joy or whatever positive thing it is that one feels after giving up sugar for a month, not yet anyway. I know that it will (hopefully? maybe? IT BETTER!) happen by the end of the 31 days. BEFORE the end of the 31 days.

I was expecting to feel a lot of physical symptoms last week like headaches, dizziness, nausea, night sweats, SOMETHING. But, aside from that first night/day of dizziness, I didn't notice anything else. Which leads me to wonder am I 1) doing this wrong? 2) totally not addicted to sugar like I thought or 3) am sugared up via the copious amounts of fruit I'm eating and the milk I'm drinking and that is therefore keeping my body from detoxing from any sugar because IT'S STILL GETTING SUGAR!!!!

Also, I noticed more irritability last week. Like, particularly a couple nights of wanting to scream and bash my head against a wall. But it's hard to know, was it from my body missing it's sugar fix, my mind missing it's emotional sugar fix, or the fact that after putting the girls to bed at 8:30 they whined, cried, got up, called for us, etc etc ETC until they fell asleep at 10:30. Several nights IN. A. ROW.

Hmm, we may never know.

Now today, into week two, all I notice is being dog-tired and just feeling over it. Why did I think this was a good idea?

Only three weeks and one day to go. Not that I'm counting.

xoxo,
christine

PS. Perhaps the moodiness is real because I AM USING SO MANY CAPITAL LETTERS. WHY AM I USING SO MANY ANGRY CAPITAL LETTERS!? BECAUSE I AM FEELING ALL THE BIG FEELINGS EVERYWHERE AND EVERYTHING AND I CAN NOT HOLD IT IN BECAUSE BIG FEELINGS! The end.

May 2, 2017

Sugarless May Day 2

Day 2 of no sugar is (almost) done.

Only 29 days to go. (Sad face.)

Day One was fine. I was feeling pretty motivated about this whole endeavor, so that kept me pretty upbeat and positive. To be honest, yesterday wasn't too difficult, although I'm under no illusion that it won't get significantly harder, and more painful. My coffee was pretty pathetic, half coffee half milk...no sugar, but I drank it. And, aside from making sure I didn't mindlessly lick a spoon or pop a piece of cereal in my mouth, it was, dare I say, an 'easy' day.

Nora woke up in the middle of the night last night, and when I went to her, I realized I was feeling a light-headed and dizzy. The dizziness lasted even after I went back to bed, which I figure is my body beginning to revolt at being denied sugar.

Luckily, this morning the dizziness had mostly subsided, although I still felt traces of it on and off all day, but I'm not assuming that this will be the end of my physical symptoms of sugar withdrawal. I have started to get a headache just tonight too.

Paige keeps telling me to just cheat and have some sugar. (Because apparently I was complaining a lot about it or something? Obviously that is totally an exaggeration. I have not been talking about it and being dramatic AT ALL.) I did remind her that even though I'm complaining some (ahem, a lot) this is something that I want to do. That (hopefully) it will be good for me and my body will (eventually) thank me.

I even managed to NOT eat ice cream when all three of my children had Dairy Queen tonight. I think I deserve a medal.


xoxo,
christine